Residency 1: Unmesh Inamdar Art Academy, India
Residency 2: Children’s Residential Treatment Center (teens)
Shadowing: Shakun Maheshwari teaching artist, COMPAS
I am working on some sketches for the Senior Project course. I am using photos of my home that my parents took and drawing by referencing them.
Other than working on the sketches, I worked on some assignments for classes. In general, I did not do anything. I did not felt motivated or energetic this week. I am emotionally over whelmed and having courses online, having the same amount of work and responsibilities not helping me. It feels like I have more amount of work to do than I usually have and by thinking about it my brain just dies on me. I feel numb, almost like I am not in my body. I found myself zoning out easily in conversations, while working and even while doing daily rituals. I have started to eat less because I do not feel hungry.
I do not think it is as bad as it sounds but the situation and current changes have affected me and the symptoms are very visible for me. I am planning my next week and trying to have some schedule so I will feel motivated. Family and courses keep in some time table but it makes me feel more tired because that schedule is not designed by me. I feel I am just following what is been ordered to me. Not having the control of my own life, at least having that feeling is making me restless.
I think we all just need to find something that would keep us motivated. I am going to try to have a schedule and will see if that is enough motivation for me. Be safe, healthy and creative.